We've been having a pretty fun time this spring/summer...tons of playing with friends, going to parks, eating popsicles, etc. Basically, the stuff kids 5 and under like to do!
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| Lillian (bottom left) just started standing. She began to teeter over, and Mac held her up with his feet so she could stand for the picture :) |
A few weeks ago we had a lot of fun visiting our friends in North Carolina. In my opinion, (as Eugenia Lincoln would say), this was one of our most fun trips down to NC ever!
We had a nice picnic on the way down. What looks like a beautiful setting in this photo is actually a tiny patch of green we found on the side of a McDonald's. I'm glad the kids didn't complain and ask to go in McDonalds. (I think the sandwiches filled with Nutella helped with that one).
We managed to keep our days in NC fun, but not too overwhelming. One morning we walked/rode bikes to Pineywood Park. The best surprise about the park was a little section of woods that the kids called the "Beaver Dam." There were tons of logs and sticks that the kids would drag around, pretending to fix a beaver dam and a teepee. This was exactly how I spent my days all through elementary school, playing with my friends in the woods. It was really sweet seeing Mac and Corrie get to play like that.
It was funny seeing the difference between Corrie and the boys. While the boys prided themselves on dragging the biggest logs possible, Corrie was happy "decorating" the teepee with little sticks.
Taking a break to eat some snacks at the worksite
On saturday morning we all went to Duke Gardens and surprised the kids with Donuts!
There was some serious competition going on after the donut eating and tree climbing was done
We were pretty excited to see lots of baby ducks on our way back to the parking lot :)
I thought it would be neat to get a nice picture of me and the kids in front the blooming azaleas. The picture looked a little different in my head.
Mac and Calvin enjoyed playing legos together in the afternoons when the other kids were sleeping. The first day they built a "kid park" together. They must have spent at least an hour working on it together and coming up with ideas to make the park really fun for kids. :)
One afternoon I watched the kids while Kelly tutored. Luke sat in his chair eating his snack for at least a half hour...maybe even an hour. That's quite a difference from what I am used to with Davey!
He started talking to me about his dried fruit, and I wish you could hear his tiny little voice! I tried to capture it on video, but of course he pretty much stopped talking when I brought the phone out.
Another neat blessing from the trip was getting to talk about homeschooling stuff with Kelly and joining their group on a little field trip the last day we were there. The Lord knew it was just the right time for us to have a visit like this one.
Learning about water flow by eating oranges and sailing the "orange peel boats" down the river:
For the past year, I have been "trying" to homeschool Mac and Corrie for preschool. By "trying," I mean I've been pretty much doing nothing and feeling overwhelmed and guilt-ridden about it all. It has felt like a heavy burden that I have had no desire to carry. I would say maybe Mac and Corrie just weren't ready for it yet, but the truth is that I just wasn't ready for it yet.
For the past few months though, I have been sensing something subtle happening in me, little by little. I have been realizing more and more what God's calling on me as a mom looks like, and that has in turn revealed ways that I do not want to obey His calling.
For example, I have been thinking about some of the things that I like to do instead of investing in the kids, which is directly related to the homeschooling question. I have been thinking that homeschooling Mac and Corrie is actually the best option for us next year, but I haven't wanted to make the sacrifice to give up doing some of the things I love to make time for school planning/prep.
I have been thinking about what this whole homeschooling issue has revealed about my heart. The real issue for me hasn't been whether or not I should homeschool. The real issue has been the state of my heart: is my heart oriented toward what is best for Ellis and the kids, or is it primarily focused on what I want? I knew the real answer to that one. So I have been wrestling with that for a little while and asking for God to change my heart and honor Him by putting Ellis and the kids first.
When we got to NC, I was so surprised by how God encouraged me. I did not realize that God had been changing my heart until Kelly and I started talking about school. I was soaking up everything Kelly was teaching me like a sponge. It was so interesting and exciting to me: I wanted to drink it all in! I have never felt like that in a conversation about homeschooling before.
The kids drawing pictures of the bugs they collected:
Learning about water flow by eating oranges and sailing the "orange peel boats" down the river:
For the past year, I have been "trying" to homeschool Mac and Corrie for preschool. By "trying," I mean I've been pretty much doing nothing and feeling overwhelmed and guilt-ridden about it all. It has felt like a heavy burden that I have had no desire to carry. I would say maybe Mac and Corrie just weren't ready for it yet, but the truth is that I just wasn't ready for it yet.
For the past few months though, I have been sensing something subtle happening in me, little by little. I have been realizing more and more what God's calling on me as a mom looks like, and that has in turn revealed ways that I do not want to obey His calling.
For example, I have been thinking about some of the things that I like to do instead of investing in the kids, which is directly related to the homeschooling question. I have been thinking that homeschooling Mac and Corrie is actually the best option for us next year, but I haven't wanted to make the sacrifice to give up doing some of the things I love to make time for school planning/prep.
I have been thinking about what this whole homeschooling issue has revealed about my heart. The real issue for me hasn't been whether or not I should homeschool. The real issue has been the state of my heart: is my heart oriented toward what is best for Ellis and the kids, or is it primarily focused on what I want? I knew the real answer to that one. So I have been wrestling with that for a little while and asking for God to change my heart and honor Him by putting Ellis and the kids first.
When we got to NC, I was so surprised by how God encouraged me. I did not realize that God had been changing my heart until Kelly and I started talking about school. I was soaking up everything Kelly was teaching me like a sponge. It was so interesting and exciting to me: I wanted to drink it all in! I have never felt like that in a conversation about homeschooling before.
Since coming home, the kids and I have had a great time together doing activities and learning to read. I can't really put in words how wonderful this has been for me, and hopefully, for the kids too. Things just seem to come together easily, and the preparation work has seemed light and easy.
This past week we did a little unit about bees to coincide with the "bee" theme of the local library story time. (Mac is also really scared of bees right now, so I thought it would be good to spend some time talking and learning about them).
I would say we did more school this week than we've done in the whole previous year combined, and it has really felt like nothing.
I would say we did more school this week than we've done in the whole previous year combined, and it has really felt like nothing.
I suppose on the surface it could look like God simply "fixed" the homeschool issue for us right now, but I believe the reason it has been so positive lately is because God affected the necessary change at the heart level in me. When the heart is right, the surface issues fall into godly places. I think those surface issues can look different and still be godly, and homeschooling might not always be the right option for us, but my prayer is that God will keep turning my heart toward Him and my family through it all.
"As for you, O Lord, you will not restrain your mercy from me; your steadfast love and your faithfulness will ever preserve me!"
-Psalm 40:11
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